Go Deep…It’s worth the Journey

It’s scary…going deep. It feels like exposure to rejection. But it is the only way for true connection. In my own life I’ve noticed the fear of depth. And so I pushed it away with distraction, avoidance, numbing and pretending. Even with those closest to me. But that protection is exhausting. And then I realized I couldn’t be the real me. It’s like I had to pretend, or everything was just surface level. I became roommates with the people who were supposed to love me the most. Why was it so scary? People leave. I could get rejected. People even die. And in my mind, why would I want that kind of pain of loss or rejection in my life? And yet, there is no satisfaction in surface level. There is no true love, trust, faith, and hope. But going deeper…being vulnerable even when it is scary, was so worth it. I didn’t know I could love like this. I didn’t know I could feel this much. Or be received with such completeness. It takes courage to be seen fully and be accepted. But the leap was worth the effort to know how deep I could go. That protection is a façade. Going deep feels real and free.

There were many times I would go for walks with my husband and sharing with him my deep personal thoughts and heart. And even when he maybe wasn’t in the same place as me, I still felt heard, loved, and embraced. He would say “you’re a deep person Julie”. I felt his sincere appreciation for who I was. That I was valued, and cherished.

I realized not everyone has someone they can confide in. I feel blessed for this gift of being received deeply. But also grateful for my willingness to be open and honest. If I did not give myself permission, I would not know such depths in my relationship. Something I was not aware was possible.

Life coaching for myself has helped bring me to this place of openness and healing. It has helped me to see myself, and receive more of who I am. It has helped me receive others deeply as well. It has helped me see better that going deep is so satisfying, rich, and full. I appreciate the world so much more. And receive in a way I did not know was possible.

That is one reason I am a life coach. Helping others get to the same place, brings me such joy and happiness. I desire to bless others by helping them see who they are and bring connection, depth and richness to their lives by their willingness to try, to open, and to receive. It is so fulfilling to see this transformation take place.